fucked up...

so fucked up and so irritated not having the freedom to speak out my heart and mind...

how i HATE people who would try to shove themselves towards the person they WANT... how cheap can someone be, doing something like that... specially when that person is aware that SHE CAN'T HAVE that someone SHE WANTS...

when i was still in high school, never have i been like that... who's so desperate over men, and who wants someone whom i cannot or even IMPOSSIBLE to have! i am not even so curious about having sex nor would always talk about sex... i do not even dress to be noticed and try to get the guy's attention in such a cheap manner like, flaunting my body and all... thank God i enjoyed my teenage life without doing such stupid, cheap things!

if ever that person gets to read this, GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE RATHER THAN PUSHING YOURSELF TO SOMEONE ELSE'S SIGNIFICANT OTHER! you're not that pretty at all with such a "cheerleader" smile... in life, you just can't have all you want...

long time...

wow!!! It's a long time I haven't updated this blog of mine... oh well am feeling so foolish again for doing something unforgivable...it's been a long time also that i haven't felt that way and DEIFINITELY am not missing that feeling because it's the kind of feeling that makes me hate myself so much...




.... am so disgusting... thanks for myself...