I am cheap....

Once again, am reminded of how cheap I am... Well, I admit and aware of that... It's just that, when it's being shoved on my face, it makes me sad.... It hurts in a way.... well, what more can I do??? I just cry it all away, hoping that the feeling would be washed away by the tears I shed... Then, thoughts of hurting myself comes in my mind again... because I want to punish myself for being such a bitch... for being so cheap... for being so stupid.... for being someone who I am now.... I feel like shit... I feel like am a dirt... or even a stain....

Am just a pretty face... am just another pretty face... I guess my b**** are bigger than my brain after all... *sigh*